What Are You Dwelling On?

I know I have a call in writing. I just don’t know if I’m supposed to write stories, letters, essays, or poetry. As a child, I wrote a lot and I had imaginary friends. Even my small pillows had names and I could easily make up a story about the pillows. My relatives and friends have given me pens as gifts. I had actually forgotten about that but memories came back when my pastor (one day) prophesied that God would use me in my writing. That was when bits and pieces of the past somehow fall into place.  So, I’ve been seeking the Lord to get a direction on what I’m supposed to write although I’m eager to write fiction or just about anything that I’m inspired to write. Honestly, I’ve spent so much time thinking about writing, making plans on writing a book but never actually writing. It’s time to stop dwelling on those thoughts and start writing.

This morning, the devotion that I read led me to Ephesians 4:29. (Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.) I think I’ve finally heard from God what He wants me to write. I should write words that build people according to their needs and words that minister His grace to them. Whether I write letters, poetry, short stories or even books, I will write to (οἰκοδομὴν) encourage and build.

Romans 14:19 King James Version (KJV)

19 Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another.

Ephesians 5:4 King James Version (KJV)

Neither filthiness, nor foolish talking, nor jesting, which are not convenient: but rather giving of thanks.


Charged Up & Inspired!

If you’ve not been to any of the Ted/TedX conferences, I would really recommend it. I attended the TedX session in Penang last year, and this year too. Last year, someone I know was presenting and I was there to give support and found myself learning from other presenters, and catching their passion.

This year’s talk in Penang was held at E&O hotel. In fact, I was just there this afternoon and I wanted to write about my experience. Once again, one of the presenters happened to be someone I know. It’s been a while since I last met him and had a great time listening to him singing the songs he wrote. Daniel’s talent has grown and I’m looking forward to getting his album. It’s nice to see that he’s the humble person I met at church.

Another presenter whom I was impressed with was Davina Goh. Wow! To sign up for training at Maling Shaolin Kung Fu Academy…. I’ll say it again. Wow! Tahan Lasak!! Reminds me of the time when I signed up for personal training at the gym. I recall today that I was in pain, almost every day.

Then, there was Jason Godfrey. What he shared about touched me to the very core because I feel it… the routine job that almost drives me crazy because it’s so routine and yet, that’s what makes the buck and of course,…one needs to pay bills. That boredom is what drives me to chase after my dream and I know how impossible things may be right now. However, this time, I would not let the naysayers get to me. 

In fact, I think what he shared was like a kick in the butt for me. Yes, never lose sight of that dream and never lose that passion. But at the same time, start doing it fearlessly. Stop all the negative talk and walk in faith! Seize the day!



November madness


So, I dived into the NaNoWriMo hole without knowing what to expect. It’s actually quite difficult to write out the ideas in my head.  Found myself hitting the backspace key very often. Then I wondered if I should just continue writing and worry about editing next time. Will I ever reach 50,000 words?

What encouraged me is when I learned that a few of the ladies sitting in the same row as myself at church, are writers. I didn’t expect it at all.

How I found myself attending this church – i honestly have no clue. I have been a regular member of another church. I just felt a tugging inside that I had to go there. I discovered that church when my best friend told me he was going there. I was actually trying to discourage him but I had to find out what was tugging at his heart, that made him want to go there. I paid a visit on one Sunday, and I guess the rest was history.

There was a word given to me that I can’t shake off. Perhaps because it brings back all the memories of the past. Somehow they’re falling into place, at least I see them falling into place. Although I do draw and paint, I did write a lot in my younger days. For some reason, I have always loved notebooks, diaries,..empty books… because there’s an urge to write  but not really knowing what to write. I wrote a lot of letters. Received many pens as gifts. I used to write short stories. Why I stopped writing – I have no idea. When I took the plunge and started writing for NaNoWriMo, I felt the thrill and excitement that I haven’t felt for a long long time.  And definitely don’t feel that in my 8 to 5 job. What about art? I still enjoy art, it gives me peace and always reminds me of how amazing God is. Look at the world around you… stand by the Niagara Falls like how I did years ago… and all I could say was “Wow!”

I don’t know where all this is going, but I know that there’s no turning back now.

The prophecy was like a gentle breeze, blowing life into my hands. How was it possible that he spoke of something I never told anyone, I asked myself.

Ah…but then God knows all things. And if you are open to His voice, He will share His plans with you.

Diving In

I have recently signed up for Nanowrimo. I can’t believe that I actually did that because I’m now wondering if I’ll survive. Yet, if there’s no deadline, the novel in my head just won’t get written and all I get are just scenes in my mind. Doesn’t that sound like a dive without knowing the depth of the pool?

I don’t know about you, but when I write fiction, I usually have some people in my mind, portraying the roles. I guess my favourite is still Korean actor Bae Yong Joon. His portrayal of the great king in The Legend is very much “stuck in my head”.

It also seems like bringing my laptop to the living room does help after all. At least I know I’m progressing and not stuck in one scene.


From The Bedroom To The Living Room

When I injured my knees, I moved from my main room upstairs to the guest room downstairs and that room has since become my makeshift office cum bedroom. However I realized that having the bed in the same room as your office just doesn’t work.

I swear I can see scenes playing out in my mind just waiting to be put to paper, but somehow I never got around to it because of so many distractions, eg. Korean dramas, TV series and books to read (mind you the living room is easily accessible), and even my art materials are within reach.

I find that in order to write something, I need to be away from the bed. So, here I am,…at the living room. Hopefully something new comes out.

I was unable to write much in the past few weeks. It was basically an emotional roller coster from the election results to having an old friend surprise me with his sudden return (for visit). When I say “surprise”, I mean “shock”. I guess I’ll be more prepared now onwards if I receive an obnoxious text message on the phone, claiming to be my admirer and my supplier at the same time. Oh that naughty boy!