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Just Daydreaming

There’s one festivity and two days that I don’t like in every year. Chinese New Year, Valentine’s Day and Chinese Valentine’s Day.

Chinese New Year – because there was a time when relatives who visit would keep asking when it would be my turn to get married (as if one is born in life to grow up, work, get married, have children and die). But this is getting better since most of our regular visitors reside in another country.

Valentine’s Day – because I often wonder why there is a need to shower one’s girlfriend/lover/wife with roses/chocolates etc on Valentine’s Day at the office. I guess I’m just the kind of person that feels that my significant other (if there’s ever going to be one) will only need me to know his true feelings; and not my entire office.

Chinese Valentine’s Day – again – perhaps it’s just me. But everything is just so commercialized. So much so that the message I seem to see is “tell them you love them only on Valentine’s Day”.  And so, restaurants and cafes use take the opportunity to hike up the prices for lovebirds etc…

So, remember to treasure your loved ones daily (not only on Valentine’s Day).

If you’re single, go out and celebrate you! You are special and Designer-made. God made only one you and not clones. Celebrate that. If you’re the hopeless romantic, I hope you have the best back hug from the one you love (understand that sometimes it’s one sided, so this can be a miracle or a wishful thought).

And for those whose heart longs for that one person (who doesn’t know he/she exists)…. it’s ok to not feel ok at times and feel sad while you’re waiting. However, go out there and celebrate you. Go out there and eat at a good restaurant, enjoy a good movie or spa… and trust in God that He knows the best.

 

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As The Days Pass By

Life goes by incredibly fast. Everything is just accelerating. That must be why I forgot that I am really getting older.

There was a time when the relatives I meet would ask me if I have a boyfriend etc…I’m glad they’ve given up on that. It makes my life easier. Then people started asking if I’ve met anyone. Again, the answer’s no. Now they no longer ask me this. Instead I get questions from new friends. What questions? “Where are your kids?” “Did you bring your kids?” Yikes! Do I look like a mother now?

 

 

What Is Your Temperature?

While I was busy working away in the morning, the alert I received on my phone distracted me. My good friend was sounding off his frustration. A quick look at the foreign exchange rates sent several thoughts spinning in my head. I thought about the property I bought in the middle of the year and was reminded of the uncertainties around us which includes our jobs etc… It’s not the turmoil in the political arena that caused me to think those thoughts but those are facts. Many things in the world are performance-driven. (Hint: ROI, Earnings per share etc…)

The only way for me to describe is the scene I saw in one of my dreams, many years ago.

I was in a tower and I could see many tornados. What I saw was a dark gloomy sky surrounded by chaos. However I was safe because I was in the tower with a roof covering my head. Amazingly it was as if much of the tower was gone except the foundation and frame along with the roof. I could feel the strong winds blowing but I was standing firm.

That was the entire dream.

Still staring at the foreign exchange rate, I sensed the LORD speaking to my spirit. Suddenly there was quietness. The what-ifs that were attacking my mind like arrows stopped. It felt like time stood still and I sensed His closeness. Throughout the day, He asked me questions, not because He didn’t know the answers but He wanted to show me what was in my heart.

The Q&A session went something like this (paraphrased).

Who gives you money?”

Well, I work to get paid.

Who gave you a job?”

The company did.

Who gave you skills and abilities?”

You did.

What is your temperature?”

… (Pause)

I don’t understand.

I know.”

Then I threw all sorts of what if questions to Him.

What if I lose my job? What if I have to sell the property? What if things never get better in my country? What if people were right suggesting that I migrate? What if I never get married? What if I grow old alone? What if I die alone in my future home and nobody realizes that I’m gone?

What if…What if…What if….

Does it matter?”

Yes.

Who gave you life?”

You did.

I will take care of you. Do you trust Me?”

 

In the evening, I heard His voice again while I was still cleaning up the kitchen.

What is your temperature?”

… (Pause)

This is hard. I need to really hold on to You tightly and depend fully on You.

That is the right place to be.”

… (Pause)

Do you long for heaven?”

Yes.

What is your temperature?”

 

I guess you can say that I feel like I was at Jacob’s well with Jesus the whole day yesterday. I felt broken in the morning and I wept because He revealed to me what I could not see, … my heart. So, what is the real issue? I had problems trusting Him. To be exact, I had problems trusting Him to take care of me the way I wanted to be cared for. I realize today that it’s a daily choice I need to make.

Trusting God is a daily choice. If we are not careful, our possessions could end up being our idols. Even we could be our own idols. If God is not our highest priority, we have an idol in our hearts.

Exodus 20:3-4 New Living Translation (NLT)

3 “You must not have any other god but me.

4 “You must not make for yourself an idol of any kind or an image of anything in the heavens or on the earth or in the sea.

I came to the realization that I need to choose to trust Him although things look bleak and that everything’s spiraling out of control. I also need to choose to trust that He knows how to look after me. It will be His way, not my way.

 

Matthew 10:28-30 Amplified Bible (AMP)

28 Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; but rather be afraid of Him who can destroy both soul and body in hell. 29 Are not two little sparrows sold for a [a]copper coin? And yet not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father’s will. 30 But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered [for the Father is sovereign and has complete knowledge].

 

When He asked me about my temperature, He was referring to my heart’s temperature? (Am I longing for His return, longing for heaven or am I getting so comfortable in this world that I forget where my eternal home is.

Matthew 6:21 New Living Translation (NLT)

21 Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.

What is your temperature?

Stronger

I couldn’t think of any other song except this song, “Stronger”. I’ve had a long week and am so relieved that it’s finally Friday. Just as I was almost done with my 2nd day of training, I received a message from my colleague who said that I have been selected for an audit session. The message I received was “be prepared” although the tone sounded more like “get ready to die”.  I was frustrated at first. Then I was reminded that if the Lord is with me. I’m learning to tune out all the noise from outside and tune in to the Holy Spirit. Instead of the “sure die” feeling my colleague was trying to stir up, I managed to calm myself down. For that, I really need to thank God. Yes, I’m required to provide samples for audit purposes and create a flowchart as well.

God will provide al my needs,  according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus.

(Philippians 4:19)

 

Hope Floats…

It has been a tough weekend, still trying to digest the bad news. It has also been difficult to change the natural thoughts that come to me. I’ve never been someone who yearns to climb up the corporate ladder because I have my own dreams to pursue. The LORD impressed upon my heart that I should continue working the way I usually do; never compromising integrity, and pursue excellence. I don’t do any apple polishing with the hopes to advance since I believe that the true rewards come from  God and not men.

Colossians 3:23-24 King James Version (KJV)

23 And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;

24 Knowing that of the Lord ye shall receive the reward of the inheritance: for ye serve the Lord Christ.

Ultimately, my rewards come from God. Yesterday’s message at church came right on time. It was what I needed to hear. Never put all your hopes on any corporation. Put your hopes in God and trust Him.

Psalm 39:7 New Life Version (NLV)

And now, Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in You.

Isaiah 40:31 King James Version (KJV)

31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.