Working in the field of supply chain has taught me that what we expect about demand and supply never happens almost all the time. It’s always easier to believe the theory but really, who would know that the so called strategy in winning over deals only work in theory.
I learned something about God’s provision a week ago, at the art studio. While chatting with my teacher, I casually brought up the subject of the upcoming art competition. I wasn’t even thinking of joining. In fact, I wanted to say that I wasn’t certain about it. The next thing I knew, my teacher asked if I brought a big canvas. When I said no, she started looking around in her studio and gave me a canvas. It was a used canvas but nevertheless, it can be used. So she started guiding me and I spent hours painting on the canvas and thoughts started dropping in my head.
When God orders you to do something, He will back you up. In my case, it could be joining the competition or simply doing that big art work for my solo exhibition. The point is, He will supply my needs.
Philippians 4:19 King James Version (KJV)
19 But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
How He supplies our needs is up to Him. I might have been looking for a big white canvas but He supplied me with a big used canvas. In my eyes, I might not have been able to know that the used canvas can still be worked on. But God sees everything (and everyone). Similarly, I think we sometimes have the tendency to label a person useless or hopeless in the sense that we can’t see any redeemable quality in him/her but the Lord sees their heart.
1 Samuel 16:7 English Standard Version (ESV)
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”
Last October, I received a prophetic word about being in a storm and the verse given to me was Hebrews 10:35-36.
Hebrews 10:35-36 New King James Version (NKJV)
35 Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward. 36 For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise:
I didn’t think much about it and shelved it. Then early in November, there was a word for me. “Be strong and of good courage.” It didn’t dawn on me that those 2 verses were God’s way of preparing me of what was coming, and has now come. After all, 2016 was a good year for me.
Just as 2016 was ending, an announcement made me realize that I was entering into the storm. I prayed that I would be spared but for some reason, I knew that this was a path I had to go through. The earlier prophetic word included this statement, “Do not fear that storm you’re in for I am assuring you now that you will come through! Do not backup and go another way! Your path of prosperity is through this storm.”
A friend told me that she felt alone as it’s the first time she and I are in different teams. While I was trying to encourage her, I said I’m alone too. At least that was what it feels like lately, having no ally and nobody you really trust. I had purposed in my heart not to complain but then again, it’s especially difficult this year.
I found myself asking God if the lesson I’m supposed to learn in this period of isolation is that He is always with me, even though I can’t see it and definitely don’t feel it. Is He teaching me to depend fully on Him because who else do I have, but God? Is it possible to speed up these lessons?
But He whispered to me to trust in Him and I simply have to trust in Him. I need to remind myself that like how it was with Joseph, because the LORD is with me, I will be successful. (Genesis 39:2) Because God is my ally, who can be against me? (Romans 8:31)
I don’t have much to write, except my prayer that the coming year will bring you to a closer walk with God.
I believe I have a destiny and every day I am closer my destiny. Praise God.
Psalm 37:23-24 The Message (MSG)
23-24 Stalwart walks in step with God;
his path blazed by God, he’s happy.
If he stumbles, he’s not down for long;
God has a grip on his hand.
I must say, … God has strange ways in getting our attentions. At least for me, He speaks to me through dreams and occasionally, I hear him speak to me when I speak to others. Strange, isn’t it?
I wake up very early in the morning to read the Bible and pray. I don’t want to sound religious but it’s the truth. Spending the early hours with God keeps me sane in this insane world.
So, this morning, I didn’t end up getting to speak much to my Heavenly Father. Instead, I spoke to my earthly father. Apparently, he was anxious the entire night, worried that he had lost his IC. (Background: my mother had taken him to see the doctor yesterday to get his eyes checked. So, he started to assume the worst.) I found myself rather frustrated and I told him he’s thinking too much. In other words, my message to him was “You will find it. Just wait.” Then I heard the Holy Spirit speak to my heart. He was asking me in a way *(paraphrased) — “Did you hear it? Wait.” I felt like a spear had pierced my heart.
While I wasn’t worried, I was troubled the day before. It wasn’t the what-ifs but just the feeling of being left out… because of the desire in my heart that still won’t leave me. (Talk about having to die to self, daily!)
I wanted to tell my dad “Why do you worry? Does worrying help you find the IC? Does it make you peaceful and happy?” And found that the message was God’s message to me. “Why are you anxious? Why do you walk around like someone without hope? Trust Me. Just wait.”
Isaiah 40:31 Amplified Bible (AMP)
But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him]
Will gain new strength and renew their power;
They will lift up their wings [and rise up close to God] like eagles [rising toward the sun];
They will run and not become weary,
They will walk and not grow tired.
If last week was my “Abraham being tested” moment, Friday was that special moment when God stepped in. I believe the Lord wanted to see if I was willing to obey and serve Him beyond my comfort zone. So first, I spent a day complaining and pouring my heart to God. The next day, I told Him that I would go ahead with it. It didn’t stop me from feeling inadequate and that I would never be the “backup singer” people expected me to be. But I purposed in my heart to obey God. (I was reminded that obedience is the easier way. It may not be always easy, but it’s the easier way.)
On Friday, I received a message from my pastor that one of the girls couldn’t make it, which meant there’s nobody handling the projection. In the end, I became the projectionist instead of the backup singer. It was like a big load off my shoulder and I knew that God has seen my heart, and I’ve passed my test. Praise the LORD!
2 Timothy 2:13 New King James Version (NKJV)
13 If we are faithless,
He remains faithful;
He cannot deny Himself.
If you’ve been following this blog, you would know that I’ve been struggling with desiring something which I feel is impossible and beyond my reach. A few nights ago, I remember crying out to God asking Him to remove that desire if it’s not from Him. Logically, if I stopped desiring it, then I would not have to wait any longer but He seems to want me to wait on Him. The reason I know that is because almost everything I come across in my reading is about waiting, and believing that with God, all things are possible.
As if it’s not enough, the sermon today is also about waiting on God.
Yes Lord! I receive Your message loud and clear! Copy that…. I’ll wait on You. And while I wait, I need to learn to keep a quiet heart before You.
Waiting is tiring, and yet He beckons me to wait. Then when I thought I could not go on waiting anymore, and told the Lord that what I’ve been waiting for is getting more and more impossible. Still, He asks me to wait. Yesterday morning, I felt the Lord say the same thing to me and invited me to surrender all that I think is impossible, to Him.
And so, here I am … waiting for the fullness of time. Lord, no more delay!
Luke 1:37 New Living Translation (NLT)
37 For the word of God will never fail.”