If last week was my “Abraham being tested” moment, Friday was that special moment when God stepped in. I believe the Lord wanted to see if I was willing to obey and serve Him beyond my comfort zone. So first, I spent a day complaining and pouring my heart to God. The next day, I told Him that I would go ahead with it. It didn’t stop me from feeling inadequate and that I would never be the “backup singer” people expected me to be. But I purposed in my heart to obey God. (I was reminded that obedience is the easier way. It may not be always easy, but it’s the easier way.)
On Friday, I received a message from my pastor that one of the girls couldn’t make it, which meant there’s nobody handling the projection. In the end, I became the projectionist instead of the backup singer. It was like a big load off my shoulder and I knew that God has seen my heart, and I’ve passed my test. Praise the LORD!
2 Timothy 2:13 New King James Version (NKJV)
13 If we are faithless,
He remains faithful;
He cannot deny Himself.
What do you remember most about the year 2015 which we bade farewell to not long ago? To me, the climax was having burning bush moments at Pastor Paul Ang’s prophetic conference in KL and another at the worship conference in Penang. Of course, if you’re not a Christ follower, you probably won’t understand what I’m saying but if you are a follower, I’m sure you experienced your own burning bush moments.
In one of my quiet moments with the LORD, I said “God, I purpose to obey You.” I know that obedience isn’t always easy and sometimes it’s the road less travelled. I’m sure that I am not perfect and I would probably fail many times but I want to obey.
Of course what comes after that is a test. I am in a situation where I need to serve someone whose actions/words once hurt my feelings. No doubt, I have already forgiven but forgetting doesn’t come easy. And I usually wouldn’t want to put myself in a spot where I could get hurt again. I can honestly say that the past week hasn’t been easy and I feel my entire being trying to find a way out of it. Then there’s a part of me that wishes that I’d fall ill on that day so I can escape. But back in my mind, it’s like I know this is something I have to go through.
Guess what chapter of the Bible that I just finished reading this morning (from the reading plan)… Genesis 22.
Genesis 22:2 New King James Version (NKJV)
2 Then He said, “Take now your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.”
Luke 6:46 New King James Version (NKJV)
Build on the Rock
46 “But why do you call Me ‘Lord, Lord,’ and not do the things which I say?
I come across situations like this occasionally. eg. Someone you know does something which is not right but it’s not entirely wrong either; but still… you feel that discomfort in your heart that tells you not to do it. Of course, it would be going against the flow. You probably feel like you’re the odd one out and some even called you “stupid” but you’d rather obey the inner prompting… (the Holy Spirit).
Every so often, the response from my friend would be something like “Come on, …they’re not going to track.” Perhaps that may be true, but I can’t lie to my heart. I would feel wrong.
Sometimes obedience may appear stupid, but then,…the blessings would often follow.
Many years ago, when I was still going to temples with my mother, I would go to a special area where I could ask a question or pray for an upcoming results. I would then insert a coin (20 cents) and there’s a spinning wheel which would spin when the coin was inserted. When it stopped, I would see what number the arrow was pointing at and I’d go to another section to collect a sheet of paper with that number to see the “answer” to my question. I remember asking about my exam results and receiving a totally odd answer,…my first child would be a girl. Of course, when I embraced the Christian faith, I’ve dismissed all that and stopped going to temples.
As I grew older, I realised that it’s actually not that difficult to hear the Holy Spirit. It’s just that sometimes I have selective hearing. Sometimes, what we’re asked to do can be painful to the flesh,.. like praying for someone we don’t really like. Other times, His voice comes like thoughts dropping on my head when I’m thinking of something else. (Example: I could be concentrating hard on what I’m planning to do on the weekend and I get interrupted by a voice. eg. “Check your car tyres and battery”, “Did you lock your car?” or “Take that road.” )
Quite recently, at a meeting, when I was concentrating hard on a subject, I heard the same voice asking me to pray for someone. (Name withheld for privacy.) I felt myself asking the Lord if He was joking. Of course, I knew He wasn’t.
I had thought of looking for greener pastures but I was led to Jeremiah 29, where I realised God said to the captives He had exiled to Babylon to “build homes and plan to stay.” I wondered why but again, the reality of verse 11 sank in. He has plans for my life, and perhaps I’m just not ready to know. Perhaps my character hasn’t been transformed enough to carry out what He has for me.
Jeremiah 29:4-5 New King James Version (NKJV)
4 Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel, to all who were carried away captive, whom I have caused to be carried away from Jerusalem to Babylon:
5 Build houses and dwell in them; plant gardens and eat their fruit.
While I had meant to visit Gurney Paragon, I felt led to visit the tire shop. Yes! Time for realignment. I also had to get the rims changed because the original ones were dented and the vibration (while driving) could cause damage to the absorber.
So, before I even bought my airtickets to Seoul, I’ve already had to spend quite a hefty amount on those rims. Guess what! My car battery was at negative too!… How it has continued to power my car, I can only say it is God’s grace.
In my previous experience, the car battery died, right in front of my house. That too, was God’s blessing indeed. At least I wasn’t out in town or in the shopping mall. I think I learned through that experience because I thought I felt compelled to get my car battery checked then, but I procrastinated. This time, I know better.
God is good! If He leads you to the tire shop,.. He definitely has reasons for doing so.