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The Love of a King

If there’s one Chinese drama that really moved my heart, it had to be “The Imperial Doctress”. While I know that the story isn’t reflective of actual history, I applaud the writer for making the characters so real; and of course the actors and actresses for bringing the characters to ‘live’. It’s so real that my heart aches for the characters and I found myself (along with others), discussing in the forum…wondering if Yun Xian did love the emperor Qi Zhen.

It is the story of a famous female medical doctor Tan Yun Xian (from the Ming dynasty). It’s nice to see a female lead who has dreams and not another typical female lead without dreams and ambitions. The two male leads are (prince) Qi Yu and emperor Qi Zhen (Zheng Qi). Although Qi Yu was the first to meet Yun Xian, I think it was Qi Zhen who really knew Yun Xian. It’s nice to see them bickering in the earlier part of the series. She didn’t know she was with the emperor. It’s easy to understand why the emperor would fall for her. She’s a very likable character and very kind too.

It’s also very obvious how much the emperor loved her although he accepted that she was in love with his younger brother (from a different mother). No matter what happened, he was almost always there for her. When she got into trouble, he would be the one defending her.

There were several scenes that I liked. Imagine having that much favour from the emperor. He reminded her that when they’re together, he’s Zheng Qi and not the emperor. In many ways, he was her confidant. Wallace Huo carried that role very well. I almost feel that ache because of the unrequited love. One of my favourite scenes was when both of them played in the snow and she accompanied him watching the fireworks.

Although Yun Xian promised the empress that she would never have feelings for Zheng Qi, I think those feelings grew during that period when they were captured by Esen’s troops. I believe by the time she realizes her own heart, it was too late in the sense that she’s bound to that promise.

Many times when I am watching the series, I feel like slapping that character because (I think) she fell in love with the wrong man. Qi Zhen’s love for her was unconditional he was always so supportive of her. Meanwhile, her beloved Qi Yu just became darker and darker in the later episodes.

So, in one of the mornings after a marathon session (watching a few episodes of the series), I thought to myself… imagine having the unconditional love of a king…. imagine if the someone who loves you is the king. The same king who protects you even without you knowing it and even at times when you feel you don’t need protection.

Then I had an epiphany, that love was reminding me of God’s love and His sacrifice. Yes, it is a good Friday!

Revelation 19:14-16 New Living Translation (NLT)

14 The armies of heaven, dressed in the finest of pure white linen, followed him on white horses. 15 From his mouth came a sharp sword to strike down the nations. He will rule them with an iron rod. He will release the fierce wrath of God, the Almighty, like juice flowing from a winepress. 16 On his robe at his thigh[a] was written this title: King of all kings and Lord of all lords.



Forgetting What Lies Behind…

Philippians 3:13 Amplified Bible (AMP)

13 [a]Brothers and sisters, I do not consider that I have made it my own yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,

I had the a very difficult time at the office. It wasn’t because I had so many issues to handle but because I was so distracted. I kept thinking of the keyboard and the Wacom Bamboo pen tablet, and the new Macbook Pro which I will be buying (just a matter of time, as this 5 – 6 year old Mac that I’m using is slowing down…). It’s always a want vs need.

When I became a follower of Christ, I had said that I will return to God whatever gifts and talents I have. So, I’ve had the opportunity to play the piano at the chapel even without a solid background in music theory (truly by the grace of God). I was able to read and play with no difficulty. After taking a few music courses in the university, I learned to write music. Finally, when I returned to Malaysia – I took up art again, after so many years, leaving the world of colours and brushes. Then I started writing… again. Somehow yesterday I was feeling like a Jill of all trades – master of none. I even thought about learning music but was afraid of being the oldest in the class.

Suddenly that thought came to mind again, do something that’s a combination of the 2 (or 3). Someone once asked me to draw illustrations for children’s story books but I rejected that because I knew it wasn’t something I could do, and I didn’t have the peace in my heart. So, perhaps I should be writing the devotional accompanied by my own illustrations. (Design my own cover, etc…) As for the music,….? I guess it will come. Later.

Meanwhile, …. still pondering about the tablet and the keyboard. Perhaps the tablet should come first.

Recharged, Renewed and Engine Overhaul

Looking back a few months ago, I did not know why I felt like I had to go for this revival conference. My flight was re-timed, so I missed the first night anyway. Having just about one to two hours of sleep on Friday night, I was tempted to leave in the middle of the session. I had planned for it but my plans got trashed because I had such an encounter with the presence of God that day.

Psalm 84:10 New King James Version (NKJV)

10 For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand.
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
Than dwell in the tents of wickedness.

I was actually worried about having constipation. It usually happens when I travel and that’s why I need my fluids and fresh fruits. It was something I couldn’t tell anyone about and anyway, I traveled alone. What truly amazed me was God meeting that need in the most unexpected way. It was after the basking session and just after I had my dinner, I sat down and was approached by a stranger. Guess what she gave me,..a banana. I was stunned because only God would know that I needed it.

I was reminded of how I told the Lord that I would serve Him with all the talents I have. So wherever I stayed, even in Canada, I would play at the chapel although I have no music background (officially). I played the guitar, took up music courses at university so that I could pick up the theory part. I’ve given up time and time again because I didn’t know where I was going with those talents. But I knew I wanted to return to Him what He gave me,..even my artistic talents. I stopped painting because it got me frustrated – not going anywhere. I guess I thought I’d become the artist like my teachers. That’s probably not what God has in mind for me, and it took me so long to see that.

It was in that hall that something in me that died, became alive again. Now I know that I can never stop creating,..whether it’s art, music, writing… if I stop doing that, I probably would cease being the person He created me to be.

I will start writing, painting, drawing, playing music again etc… for His glory.

The Cross

Your perception of who Jesus is, will somehow lead you to make a decision…Is Jesus God? Is Jesus a man? It would be your decision, and nobody else’s. In 1992/3, I made that decision and never regretted it.  To me, Jesus is God, and because of that decision, I decided to follow Christ.

Of course, I won’t say that being a follower of Christ, life is hunky dory and everything is smooth sailing. In fact, I think it resembles a long marathon with roller coster rides along the way. There are moments of joy and there’s sadness and unanswered questions. But that’s where faith comes in.

If everything has to happen my way, then doesn’t that make me god then? If I have answers to everything, then I don’t need God, do I?

So, to those friends who say that believing in God is like a kind of weakness where you don’t want to take responsibilities and ultimately say that what you’re doing is what God wants you to do etc… – my response is that’s not true.

But I am not ashamed to say that I am not perfect and that I do need the LORD and I remain grateful for what He did at the cross…the divine exchange that only He can do.

John 3:16 King James Version (KJV)

16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

I Wish You Love

It’s hard to imagine Christmas without love. After all, we are commemorating the birth of Jesus Christ. I was thinking really hard about what to draw for Christmas. In the end, I came up with just this simple heart shape with colours. Just how do you draw love? This Christmas, I wish you love, joy and peace. Above all, I wish you love. That you may know of the amazing love of Christ.

Isaiah 9:6

King James Version (KJV)

For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.



Choose Life Speak Life

Someone got me exasperated on Friday. He said to me, “It looks like you’ve gained weight.” My response was “yes, I’ve gained weight.” So, he said “So, there’s extra burden on your knees.” What followed was his advice (or lecture) about whose diet I should follow etc… At that point, I thank God I didn’t have power like medusa or I’d turn him into stone. Has he earned the right to tell me what to do and what not to do? No!

It’s obvious I know my limitations when I’ve yet to recover from my knee injuries. As much as I would love to go back to doing exercises, my knees wouldn’t let me. And who doesn’t know about avoiding carbohydrates etc? Was he expecting me to eat only once a day?

Moreover, this same person had got me irate a few months back too. Why did he ask about my knees anyway? He had the nerve to say to me “It won’t heal.” Once again, I had to use all my energy to stop myself from blasting him with words.

If he wants to say negative things, go ahead, but speak it to himself. As for me, I say that my God is my Healer. I look forward to the day that I stand before him and say to him, “You said I won’t get better. You said these legs won’t heal. Look at me and know that my God heals.”