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Each time I listen to this song, tears would flow naturally.

This evening, I spent some time at the art gallery putting up the price labels on my artworks. I was reminded of what Jesus did for me. The very fact that I will be having my solo art exhibition is evidence enough that God hears and knows the desires of my heart.

The God I serve is leading me closer to my dreams. The God I serve still sees me as valuable even though I’m not worthy. And I remain so thankful…


The Love of a King

If there’s one Chinese drama that really moved my heart, it had to be “The Imperial Doctress”. While I know that the story isn’t reflective of actual history, I applaud the writer for making the characters so real; and of course the actors and actresses for bringing the characters to ‘live’. It’s so real that my heart aches for the characters and I found myself (along with others), discussing in the forum…wondering if Yun Xian did love the emperor Qi Zhen.

It is the story of a famous female medical doctor Tan Yun Xian (from the Ming dynasty). It’s nice to see a female lead who has dreams and not another typical female lead without dreams and ambitions. The two male leads are (prince) Qi Yu and emperor Qi Zhen (Zheng Qi). Although Qi Yu was the first to meet Yun Xian, I think it was Qi Zhen who really knew Yun Xian. It’s nice to see them bickering in the earlier part of the series. She didn’t know she was with the emperor. It’s easy to understand why the emperor would fall for her. She’s a very likable character and very kind too.

It’s also very obvious how much the emperor loved her although he accepted that she was in love with his younger brother (from a different mother). No matter what happened, he was almost always there for her. When she got into trouble, he would be the one defending her.

There were several scenes that I liked. Imagine having that much favour from the emperor. He reminded her that when they’re together, he’s Zheng Qi and not the emperor. In many ways, he was her confidant. Wallace Huo carried that role very well. I almost feel that ache because of the unrequited love. One of my favourite scenes was when both of them played in the snow and she accompanied him watching the fireworks.

Although Yun Xian promised the empress that she would never have feelings for Zheng Qi, I think those feelings grew during that period when they were captured by Esen’s troops. I believe by the time she realizes her own heart, it was too late in the sense that she’s bound to that promise.

Many times when I am watching the series, I feel like slapping that character because (I think) she fell in love with the wrong man. Qi Zhen’s love for her was unconditional he was always so supportive of her. Meanwhile, her beloved Qi Yu just became darker and darker in the later episodes.

So, in one of the mornings after a marathon session (watching a few episodes of the series), I thought to myself… imagine having the unconditional love of a king…. imagine if the someone who loves you is the king. The same king who protects you even without you knowing it and even at times when you feel you don’t need protection.

Then I had an epiphany, that love was reminding me of God’s love and His sacrifice. Yes, it is a good Friday!

Revelation 19:14-16 New Living Translation (NLT)

14 The armies of heaven, dressed in the finest of pure white linen, followed him on white horses. 15 From his mouth came a sharp sword to strike down the nations. He will rule them with an iron rod. He will release the fierce wrath of God, the Almighty, like juice flowing from a winepress. 16 On his robe at his thigh[a] was written this title: King of all kings and Lord of all lords.


Park The Car

Last Saturday evening, in my quiet time with the Lord, I asked Him to give me dreams again. True enough I had a dream that night. I saw 3 different scenes in the dream.

In the first scene, I saw a car getting into the carpark slot (for parking). In the second scene, I saw a few deers in the wild. Then the third scene was a broken ankle. I asked God what He was trying to tell me and I believe this was what He’s saying to me.

The car getting into the parking spot was an invitation to stop for a while, stop being so busy and take time to soak in His presence. I believe that God showed me the deers because I needed that reminder that nothing will truly satisfy me, except the love that comes from the LORD. The broken ankle was probably the condition of my heart and I need to take some time to just worship and soak in God’s presence and allow Him to heal the “broken ankle” so that I can stand strong and walk again.

Psalm 42:1-2 New King James Version (NKJV)

BOOK TWO: Psalms 42—72

Yearning for God in the Midst of Distresses

To the Chief Musician. A Contemplation[a] of the sons of Korah.

42 As the deer pants for the water brooks,
So pants my soul for You, O God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When shall I come and appear before God?[b]

Psalm 18:33 Amplified Bible (AMP)

He makes my feet like [a]hinds’ feet [able to stand firmly and tread safely on paths of testing and trouble];
He sets me [securely] upon my high places.



Christmas is coming. Yes, you can see the decorations in the store.

In the hustle and bustle, let’s not forget the reason for the season. Not forgetting how chaotic the world has become. Yes, there’s so much evil, hatred and bitterness in the world. I don’t have to write but you can read the newspapers and see how lives have been lost etc… all the senseless killings, etc… Let’s not forget those who are directly affected and spread a little kindness and love because (John 3:16)…

John 3:16 New King James Version (NKJV)

16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

A Reflection of the Creator

I had been busy working on a piece of digital art. When I started this project, I already saw the completion in my mind. A picture provided by my friend inspired me, and I knew what I wanted to do. I saw it in my head and started working on it, bit by bit. I felt pleased when I started to see the picture showing,..the ears,.. the eyes,..the body….etc…

As I progressed further, I started to sing when I was painting. I usually paint with music playing in the background but I’ve never sung along with it but this time, I started to sing. Then I heard a whisper in my heart, “I delight in you.” I knew it was the Spirit of God and I felt amazed. I was reminded of this verse.

Zephaniah 3:17 New King James Version (NKJV)

17 The Lord your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”

Wow! I realized that I was beginning to reflect Him. It was like suddenly I knew how He felt because I was delighted in my own creation – the artwork. And in the midst of that, hearing “I delight in you” totally steals my heart away.

Faith and Believing

I shall start by quoting this verse from the Bible which came to mind when I was meditating.

Psalm 16:8-11King James Version (KJV)

I have set the Lord always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.

Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope.

10 For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption.

11 Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

I love the month of December because it means holidays are coming and I will have approximately 1 week to do what I would rather be doing on weekdays 8am – 5pm. I also love December because it’s Starbucks Toffee Nut Latte season. What I don’t like about December is the fact that the new year is approaching, which also means that the Chinese New Year is approaching. It used to mean more to me back in the days when my sisters were not married and it was like “Thanksgiving” or Christmas holidays when we have family reunions. However, things have been different for years. It’s more like a season when some cousins come and stay over because they would be doing the Chinese New Year visitations at a rural district and prefer to stay somewhere urban, and free of charge. Every year it’s the same, which means receiving the red packets (lucky money).  (Only singles receive this from the married adults.) So, there’s a certain stigma to it when older (married) relatives keep giving you “lucky money” even after you’ve hit the 30s..or 40s…and single. (At least, that’s how I witness.) Frequently asked questions are, “Do you have a boyfriend yet? Have you met someone? Are you dating? Why are you not dating? Isn’t there anyone in your workplace?” Of course as you grow older, the questions decrease but the money keeps coming. Relatives will talk to your father to find out about your marital status and if he needs help in getting that changed from “single” to “married”.

My sister and my brother-in-law once tried to set me up with one of his friends. I knew something was strange when she kept saying things on his favour and my heart said “uh oh” silently. Lunch was incredibly boring and I spent most of the time playing games on my iPhone because all the men could talk about was how the economy was doing and business etc… (Yawn…) I confronted her later that day and warned her never ever try that again.

When I was in my 20s, it felt like I was going to die, if my friends got married and I remained single. But hey, you don’t get married for the sake of getting married. My motto when I told my friends was “If it happens, it happens. If it doesn’t, it doesn’t.” But that doesn’t take away the pressure from society. Of course, along the way, God helps you pick up the pieces of your broken heart when the one you adore doesn’t feel the same towards you; or… when someone you adore leaves for another country and gets married. It happens. Meanwhile, you get attention from people whom you feel zero chemistry with. This happens too.

Sometimes people around tend to make you feel that you’re incomplete without a spouse. Unfortunately this also happens in the household of faith. To me, life isn’t about a race to get married and have children. I am already complete, when Jesus came into my life. As for the rest of my years – however few or many that I will have, I hope to live life pursuing what He put me here to do…single, or married.

To those who keep saying that marriage and children will ensure that there will be at least someone to take care of you when you’re old, I say that it’s not necessarily true. Children when they grow up, may leave the country to work elsewhere. As for me, I know that only the LORD is with me all the time. And He will look after me when I grow old. My faith is in Him and Him alone, not in pension funds for provision etc… but God will provide for my every need.

Looking To God

In the recent chaos at home, I had no time to pray nor read the bible although I so wanted to. Somehow, one thing after another happened and it got to a point when I desperately needed to hear from the Lord. I’m so relieved to God still loves me even though I’m full of flaws, impatient, easily agitated and easily worried.

Somehow spending last night reading the Bible, singing worship songs and praying brought me relief and peace. I won’t elaborate on what I’m going through presently but yesterday after praying for deliverance, I somehow felt God telling me to keep my eyes focused on Him and not at the storm surrounding me. For a while, I thought that it’s just my own voice in my head but when I read the today’s devotional, it was the same message. “The key is to keep your eyes on Him, to remember that He is fighting each battle alongside you.” (pg. 129 Daily Grace, published by Blessing Books). Praise God that He is close to me although I can’t see Him and He makes Himself so real to me especially during times like these.

Psalm 42:11

New King James Version (NKJV)

11 Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God;
For I shall yet praise Him,
The help of my countenance and my God.