Too Many Wrong Thoughts

I had a dream last night. In my dream, I saw myself chewing. Then I saw a plate and on the plate was a worm. As I was chewing, I felt something stuck in my teeth.

I felt that God was telling me that I’ve been thinking a lot of wrong thoughts lately. I suppose when you’re told that there will be a re-org within the department, it gets emotionally draining. At least to me it does. So, doom and gloom kept replaying in my mind and I didn’t know how to stop the vicious cycle.

Joshua 1:8 King James Version (KJV)

This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.

I was reminded of the cow chewing it’s cud and once again, even when I was out in the bookstore, I found myself staring at a small plushie (cow).

Philippians 4:8 King James Version (KJV)

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

The only way to block the wrong thoughts is to replace them with good thoughts.


Back to School

I’ve been having a few dreams related to school, or going back to school or even events at school. On Saturday night, I saw myself in a hall (something like those in the game shows in TV) where my name was suddenly called by someone (at my workplace – in reality). For simplicity’s sake, let’s refer to her as Elaine. She called me and gave me a tough Math question. Apparently I was supposed to solve it but I didn’t know how. (I remember saying to myself in the dream – why of all days that she should ask me now – given the fact that I have already graduated from university many years ago. ) Then she told me “You better start brushing up on your Math”. I woke up. I thought the dream was just because I have been hearing her voice so often (and loud too). Then last night I had another dream where I saw myself at university. I was walking towards a building and was welcomed in as an alumni.

Philippians 1:6 New International Version (NIV)

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

This morning, I suddenly get the revelation after spending some time reading the Word. I think the Lord is telling me to get ready to brush up on the skills / knowledge that I’ve learned previously. He’s telling me to get ready, at the workplace. (That’s why Elaine appeared in the dream. In other words, it relates to work or happenings at the workplace.) I believe God is telling me to get ready because He’s training me on something at the workplace. Perhaps a new project which requires my knowledge, which could be tough. Although it would be tough, He would be with me all the way to help and guide me. And He will complete His work in me. I will graduate in that school.

There’s usually (if not always) a test that comes before promotion to the new level – in pretty much all aspects of life. He is more interested in transforming us to be like Jesus than leaving us in the comfort zone.

1 Corinthians 9:25-27 New International Version (NIV)

25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26 Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. 27 No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.


The Battle In The Mind

While I was working on my artworks to submit for a competition, I knew that I should submit 3 works because the entrance fee entitles me to submit up to 3 artworks. The problem was that I only completed 2. Working on the 3rd piece was like getting into a battle, in the mind.

I looked at the old photos I took and one of them captured my eye. Thought I heard a whisper that said, “Do that one.” At a glance, the first thing I said (in my mind) was “I can’t do it.” There’s so much details involved.

Nevertheless, I started working on it. Started with the easy parts,..the background. Then slowly working my way to the foreground and the details.

Sometimes, we ourselves are the ones that stop us from achieving our dreams… because we perceive that it’s just too big, too difficult, and we don’t know how to do it….

Then again, if it’s the dream that God had put in our beings,…as a seed dream, He will cause that dream to grow, in due time.

Philippians 1:6 King James Version (KJV)

Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:

Little Reminders

The biggest problem I have after discovering my own destiny, is…. I end up procrastinating. Yes, I get distracted by so many things. Then, yesterday someone asked me “How’s your art coming along?”

Ah yes…. that was a tiny slap on my wrist. Gotta get on with that tiny project to add some sweetness to the soul.


The 3 Part Dream

I was going to write about the dream 3-part-dream I had about a week ago (Saturday). Once in a while, I get those dreams that I wake up wondering what it is about. Part 1 showed me feeling disappointed about something (or someone).. can’t quite remember but basically, the keyword is disappointment. Part 2, someone told me it’s about time to change my garment because it was beginning to make me look shabby. Part 3, I saw sunflowers.

Took me a while to figure that out but I felt that it tied  to Isaiah 61. It’s time to take off the spirit of heaviness and put on a garment of praise.

I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels. (Isaiah 61:10) KJV

I admit that in the midst of the madness and the chaos encountered in the workplace (and life itself) tends to make me forget the joy of the Lord. I believe God was telling me to imitate the sunflower. Look not to the right or left, but keep focusing on Him. )

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. (Proverbs 3: 5-6) KJV

Seek ye the Lord while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: (Isaiah 55:6) KJV


It seems like I need to visit the doctor tomorrow. I’m not looking forward to it, but then again, who looks forward to seeing the doctor? Then again, the burning question is whether the two reddish/brown patches on my skin is something to be concerned about. I guess I’ve never thought about it but it’s been so many months and the patch didn’t disappear. Now, there’s another patch at my shoulder and I don’t know if it’s been there for a while or that it’s pretty recent.

I had a lot of thoughts this morning. What if I get referred to the dermatologist instead? And what if it turns out to be something I’d rather not have.

For now, I’ll take it one day at a time. Perhaps it really is nothing to worry about.

An Old Dream – Resurfacing

The video above isn’t related to what I’m writing in this post but I decided to include it because Joshua Bell is an inspiration to me.

Ever since the concert I attended on Sunday, I felt that old dream re-surfacing. Sometimes I wish that it would just die off because it’s like swimming upstream. I sent a note of encouragement but I don’t know if it ever reached the players.

I personally believe that they have potential and I think if they’re given more training and exposure to international artists, it would encourage them to work even harder. The fact that giving their time to play, show that they do have a passion for music. I don’t have any comments for those who joined because they were nagged into doing so. But I long to see an improvement in the quality

If I have unlimited funds, I would invest in the young musicians. It’s an investment because I believe in them and I would set up the music school so that even those who normally don’t get the opportunity to take up music lessons would get that opportunity.

It’s so big that it’s impossible – and that’s how it gets shoved away in the cold corner- unless God steps in. Every now and then, this dream would show its head.

Whenever I see videos like the clip below, my heart is moved; and I think to myself, it is very possible that a child who comes from a family that’s struggling with finances might have that talent hidden in him/her but due to finances, that talent might be buried for a long time.