In the past years, I’ve been living in what I call the safe zone. I never participated in any art competitions due to fear of rejection. Since this year is (for me) the year of doing things differently, I decided join two international art competitions. If I never try, I will never know.
I have finally finished one of the artworks. The other 2 remains in my head. When I was mixing colours and trying to get the colour of blood, I remember saying to the Lord that it’s so hard to get that red colour. The colour of blood is not just carmine and it isn’t vermillion. There are so many shades of red. (See the colour chart at Winsor & Newton.) Then the now familiar still, small voice spoke to my heart and I was reminded of the cross. It must’ve been difficult and a lot of pain ~ but the love that’s in His heart must’ve been so deep.
John 1:29 New King James Version (NKJV)
The Lamb of God
29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him, and said, “Behold! The Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!
If there’s one word I can use to describe what I’m feeling this moment,…”Alive” would be it. It’s been a long time since I have this kind of feeling. Doing art again makes me feel so alive. Like I can’t wait to wake up from my sleep cos I want to keep drawing…
There’s just one problem, I have to go to the office first.
Last night, I told myself that I had to spend some time doing artwork. Even if I didn’t really know what to draw and I didn’t really want to use any reference picture, I took out my Wacom tablet and started this unknownand unplanned piece. I started with the darker shades and moved on with the brighter colours. As I continued painting, I started seeing a picture in my mind.
Depending on where you are, at this point,.. you could be following Him right now. Know that the LORD loves you and He will always guide you.
Isaiah 58:11 King James Version (KJV)
11 And the Lord shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.
If you haven’t made that journey,.. what are you waiting for? What the world offers will never truly satisfy you.
Matthew 4:19 King James Version (KJV)
19 And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.
I feel like a little kid on Christmas Day. Oh yes, I finally bought the tablet but alas, I wasn’t able to regjster the product. The key for the bundled software was apparently “invalid” and the CD won’t let me install the bundled software on my MacBook Pro although I am already using Mac OS X Yosemite.
Does it mean that it was never my true passion if I’m no longer willing to keep doing it without getting return of interest ($$$)? It’s like vicious circle, using the money from the routine 8am-5pm job, to pay for what you hope to be doing…and still not getting returns. But that’s the thing without the $$$, how is it possible to purely focus on the passion especially with bills, loans etc to pay. It’s not like I have a trust fund that I can fall back on when things fail. Then after a while, it gets really tiring. Perhaps coming exhibition is my last? After all,… I have one canvas left. I definitely salute those who have succeeded in their lifetime.
This piece of work is for sale by the way. Please contact me directly if you wish to purchase this piece. Of course, indirectly, you will be sponsoring my trip to England. (grin). Original piece done by yours truly.
Have you had an awkward moment? Mine was when a young boy who was going around the different tables getting autographs from the artists. Felt a bit awkward to sign for him. And here I am, hoping to get autographs from my favourite artists (those that do not paint…)
I signed my name differently because I didn’t want it to be the same as my signatures in the documents at the workplace.