Demand and Supply

Working in the field of supply chain has taught me that what we expect about demand and supply never happens almost all the time. It’s always easier to believe the theory but really, who would know that the so called strategy in winning over deals only work in theory.

I learned something about God’s provision a week ago, at the art studio. While chatting with my teacher, I casually brought up the subject of the upcoming art competition. I wasn’t even thinking of joining. In fact, I wanted to say that I wasn’t certain about it. The next thing I knew, my teacher asked if I brought a big canvas. When I said no, she started looking around in her studio and gave me a canvas. It was a used canvas but nevertheless, it can be used. So she started guiding me and I spent hours painting on the canvas and thoughts started dropping in my head.

When God orders you to do something, He will back you up. In my case, it could be joining the competition or simply doing that big art work for my solo exhibition. The point is, He will supply my needs.

Philippians 4:19 King James Version (KJV)

19 But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

How He supplies our needs is up to Him. I might have been looking for a big white canvas but He supplied me with a big used canvas. In my eyes, I might not have been able to know that the used canvas can still be worked on. But God sees everything (and everyone). Similarly, I think we sometimes have the tendency to label a person useless or hopeless in the sense that we can’t see any redeemable quality in him/her but the Lord sees their heart.

1 Samuel 16:7 English Standard Version (ESV)

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”



Before I Get Older

So, tomorrow I’ll be celebrating my birthday. By now, I’m not sure if there’s much to celebrate since as we get older,.. naturally our metabolism slows down and we get aches and pains etc…

I hope I remember to number my days and use it wisely. After all, time is the most expensive commodity. Time that’s lost can never be earned.

Earlier today, I was asked what made me decide not to get married. I wasn’t sure what to answer since I didn’t make the decision. But I didn’t want to told that I’m picky. Then again, I am picky. By that, I mean, if I get married, he is a man who shares the same faith. He has to be a man after God’s own heart.

So tomorrow as I get a year older, (and hopefully wiser)… I’m still unmarried but God is still faithful to me. And I look forward to His return. Till then, I will pursue the dreams He planted in my heart.

That Awkward Feeling

Oh that awkward feeling —

Sometimes you meet someone whom you feel like you’ve known for ages. Then you wonder why you didn’t meet that someone years ago. But then, years ago, things might have been different. Then you wonder why you feel somehow drawn to him. Maybe not in a romantic way but you like this person anyway. For some reason, you’re able to sense that he has a deep pain hidden behind his smile. And you wish – deep down in your heart that you can dive in his heart and somehow remove whatever that’s causing such pain and let him really smile again.


Two Months

I had meant to write this a week ago but was tied up with other things, plus still recovering from a cold.

In one of our lunch, someone said something about a colleague of mine whom I hardly deal with but we were in the same team. Not many people knew that she’s battling cancer and her battle is coming to an end ~ unfortunately she’s on the losing side.

So, the question someone said was “What would you do, if you’re told that you have 2 months left to live?” I said I’d do what’s important to me with the time I have left. Someone else said she would spend more time with her family. The other reply was “But you don’t know if your family members will have time. You may be at home while others are working.” That could be true, but I think when that actually happens, the family members will want to spend time at home too.

I’m still finding it hard to believe that she has 2 months left although I’m not that close to her. But the truth is, we all have an expiration date. With each day that goes by, that time gets shorter and shorter.

So, what would you do with your remaining time? Lost time is lost. Forever.


Just Daydreaming

There’s one festivity and two days that I don’t like in every year. Chinese New Year, Valentine’s Day and Chinese Valentine’s Day.

Chinese New Year – because there was a time when relatives who visit would keep asking when it would be my turn to get married (as if one is born in life to grow up, work, get married, have children and die). But this is getting better since most of our regular visitors reside in another country.

Valentine’s Day – because I often wonder why there is a need to shower one’s girlfriend/lover/wife with roses/chocolates etc on Valentine’s Day at the office. I guess I’m just the kind of person that feels that my significant other (if there’s ever going to be one) will only need me to know his true feelings; and not my entire office.

Chinese Valentine’s Day – again – perhaps it’s just me. But everything is just so commercialized. So much so that the message I seem to see is “tell them you love them only on Valentine’s Day”.  And so, restaurants and cafes use take the opportunity to hike up the prices for lovebirds etc…

So, remember to treasure your loved ones daily (not only on Valentine’s Day).

If you’re single, go out and celebrate you! You are special and Designer-made. God made only one you and not clones. Celebrate that. If you’re the hopeless romantic, I hope you have the best back hug from the one you love (understand that sometimes it’s one sided, so this can be a miracle or a wishful thought).

And for those whose heart longs for that one person (who doesn’t know he/she exists)…. it’s ok to not feel ok at times and feel sad while you’re waiting. However, go out there and celebrate you. Go out there and eat at a good restaurant, enjoy a good movie or spa… and trust in God that He knows the best.


In The Storm

Last October, I received a prophetic word about being in a storm and the verse given to me was Hebrews 10:35-36.

Hebrews 10:35-36 New King James Version (NKJV)

35 Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has great reward. 36 For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise:

I didn’t think much about it and shelved it. Then early in November, there was a word for me. “Be strong and of good courage.”  It didn’t dawn on me that those 2 verses were God’s way of preparing me of what was coming, and has now come. After all, 2016 was a good year for me.

Just as 2016 was ending, an announcement made me realize that I was entering into the storm. I prayed that I would be spared but for some reason, I knew that this was a path I had to go through. The earlier prophetic word included this statement, “Do not fear that storm you’re in for I am assuring you now that you will come through! Do not backup and go another way! Your path of prosperity is through this storm.”

A friend told me that she felt alone as it’s the first time she and I are in different teams. While I was trying to encourage her, I said I’m alone too. At least that was what it feels like lately, having no ally and nobody you really trust. I had purposed in my heart not to complain but then again, it’s especially difficult this year.

I found myself asking God if the lesson I’m supposed to learn in this period of isolation is that He is always with me, even though I can’t see it and definitely don’t feel it. Is He teaching me to depend fully on Him because who else do I have, but God? Is it possible to speed up these lessons?

But He whispered to me to trust in Him and I simply have to trust in Him. I need to remind myself that like how it was with Joseph, because the LORD is with me, I will be successful. (Genesis 39:2) Because God is my ally, who can be against me? (Romans 8:31)