Category Archives: Reflection

A Willing & Obedient Heart

When I was doing my artwork last night, I paused to look at one of my brushes. It was old, quite worn out and the bristles were short. I contemplated throwing it away but a thought entered my mind. “It can still be used.” Then I was reminded how this is so much like the reasons (excuses?) some people use when they shy away from serving.

You may be getting old but it doesn’t mean that you can no longer serve God. Maybe you feel like you’ve done many wrongs in the past but it doesn’t mean you’re beyond redemption.

Ephesians 2:4-5 New International Version (NIV)

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.

Maybe you feel you’re getting older and somehow just don’t quite blend in when the younger generation worshippers dances on stage and you just don’t/can’t dance (…like me), so… there are always other areas to serve. Smile and say hello to a new member of the church. Encourage one another. Pray and/or encourage your pastors.

1 Samuel 16:7 New International Version (NIV)

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

2 Timothy 2:20-21 New King James Version (NKJV)

20 But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some for honor and some for dishonor. 21 Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, [a]sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work.



Yesterday was a bad bad day. I’m glad that it’s over but I’m not sure if there are residues. I’m just hanging on to God while my world is spinning. Dementia is a terrible disease and it affects not only the person who is sick but the caregivers. It requires being able to tolerate mean things said. It gets even worse when what is said attacks the very core of you.

Today is one of those days that I want to disappear and ask God to hide me from the world. Life is so crazy and hectic, I just want to stop everything and run to Jesus and hide.

Counting Down The Days

Guess what! I’m traveling again soon. I’m so looking forward to the trip but at the same time a bit nervous. Just need to remind myself to get my plans written down.

I can at least, dream of seeing Il Divo in my trip. It would definitely make my day (or year..)

I wouldn’t want to get off the gondola if the gondolier is anything like Carlos Marin. In my head, I’d probably be saying, “Sing,…my angel of music.”



When I was at church yesterday, I was inspired to paint this picture. It was initially supposed to be a storm. Before I was able to paint the raging waves and a vessel in the midst of the storm, I sensed the Lord telling me to paint a blooming garden instead of the raging waves int he sea. So while painting the garden, I finally understood why.

Instead of focusing too much on the storm, the waves around us and even the vessel that’s in the storm, keep your focus on the One who is with you in the storm. For it is He who is able to calm the storm outside, and the storm in you.

When you abide in Him, you will bear fruit regardless of where you are. It’s all about Him.

John 15:5 New King James Version (NKJV)

“I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.

Mark 4:39 New King James Version (NKJV)

39 Then He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace, be still!” And the wind ceased and there was a great calm.


The Long Ride

I’ve found out that it’s so easy to sing “I surrender all” without really surrendering. In fact, I think one of the most difficult Christian hymns is “I surrender all”. The flesh constantly wants to do things “my way”.

In a long ride home, I was put in a difficult spot where I was asked if I’m married. When it’s a short question, it’s easy to answer a simple “yes” or “no”. However, when people start to probe further, it gets very uncomfortable. I find myself lying to them so that I don’t have to answer the questions. [Dear readers – especially married readers, if you have single friends, please don’t ask them whether they’re married unless you really didn’t already know. When you get the answer, please do not probe and remind the person how slim his/her chances are as he/she gets older. I’m sure he/she already knows. Please don’t ask if he/she wants to meet another single friend of yours, unless he/she requested for introduction. Please don’t ask whether a girlfriend/boyfriend is in sight. Please don’t say that your friend is being too picky. It’d be best to stop where he/she answers a no.]

There are reasons why they (also speaking for myself) are still single. Some reasons are obvious, and some other reasons… well, it’s best for you to ask God because we ourselves don’t know.

During worship, I saw a vision of a girl using her hair, wiping the feet of someone. Then I was reminded of Luke 7:38 And she stood behind him at his feet, and she was weeping and she began washing his feet with her tears and wiping them with the hair of her head. And she was kissing his feet and anointing them with ointment. I sensed the Lord asking me to return to Him ~ just as I am and accept that there are questions that I will never have answers in this lifetime.  I have the assurance that He will never leave me and that He hears my heart. Just trust Him.  So leave all the frustrations behind and embrace His shalom peace.