For some reason, I felt led to do a word study on “security”. I sense the Lord revealing to me that I have trust issues.
The KJV translates Strongs H982 in the following manner: trust (103x), confidence (4x),secure (4x), confident (2x), bold (1x), careless (1x), hope (1x), hoped (1x), ones (1x), sure (1x),women (1x).
The fact is we’re bombarded with so many things that can cause us to ask that one infamous question: What is going to happen to me?
The Brexit. What will the results be? How will it affect the world economy? How about the US economy (since I work for a US company)? With the current economic situation, will it make things worse? Will I lose my job? How will I pay for my apartment?
I will be lying if I say that I did not (even for once) thought about those questions. What’s the remedy? Replacing the questions with God’s Word.
I will “trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt” I “dwell in the land, and verily” I “shalt be fed.”
Psalm 37:3-8 King James Version (KJV)
3 Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.
4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
5 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.
6 And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.
7 Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.
Someone (I can’t remember who) once said that God is more interested about changing and shaping us so that we become more like Him than letting us have our own ways in everything. Imagine how chaotic that would be! It pains me when I see some people interpreting God’s Word to fit their own desires (lust of the flesh), and not by the context.
I like the way it’s written in NLT. (Psalm 51:12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.) When you spend more time with the Lord, somehow you change. At least, I know I’ve changed. Sometimes I don’t even notice myself changing but I know He’s changing me everyday. My part is the willingness to rest in Him and trust Him which means allowing the potter to shape this lump of clay…
Hebrews 12:1-2 Amplified Bible (AMP)
12 Therefore then, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses [who have borne testimony to the Truth], let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance (unnecessary weight) and that sin which so readily (deftly and cleverly) clings to and entangles us, and let us run with patient endurance and steady and active persistence the appointed course of the race that is set before us,
2 Looking away [from all that will distract] to Jesus, Who is the Leader and the Source of our faith [giving the first incentive for our belief] and is also its Finisher [bringing it to maturity and perfection]. He, for the joy [of obtaining the prize] that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising and ignoring the shame, and is now seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Psalm 51:10-13 New Living Translation (NLT)
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God.
Renew a loyal spirit within me.
11 Do not banish me from your presence,
and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and make me willing to obey you.
13 Then I will teach your ways to rebels,
and they will return to you.
Last night I did some reading and felt led to meditate on these verses. (See below)
New King James Version (NKJV)
14 Do all things without complaining and disputing, 15 that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world,
1 Corinthians 10:10
New King James Version (NKJV)
10 nor complain, as some of them also complained, and were destroyed by the destroyer.
Numbers 14:2, 36
New King James Version (NKJV)
2 And all the children of Israel complained against Moses and Aaron, and the whole congregation said to them, “If only we had died in the land of Egypt! Or if only we had died in this wilderness! 36 Now the men whom Moses sent to spy out the land, who returned and made all the congregation complain against him by bringing a bad report of the land,
There is one word that appears in all those verses. Complain. At least that’s the root word for complaining & complained. The more I read and think about those verses, the more I see that God takes it seriously.
I think about those men who were sent out to spy the land. They not only came back with bad reports, but doing so led the congregation to complain (murmur). What happened to those men? They died by the plague. Wow! That itself makes me think twice when I feel like complaining. (But it is hard not to complain, isn’t it? I can almost see a scene in my mind, showing me driving to work and having a rude driver cut the queue I’m in etc…, and not forgetting the nasty hot weather etc…) The list seems to grow long.
Since complaining doesn’t please God, doing the opposite should please Him, I thought. It’s time to tune out the world and tune in to God. Instead of complaining, I should try to change and thank Him.
Not easy to do….
New Living Translation (NLT)
4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving;
go into his courts with praise.
Give thanks to him and praise his name.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
The Message (MSG)
16-18 Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live.
I’m beginning to understand why we are told not to worry about tomorrow. With all that has recently happened, it dawned on me that I just can’t handle it anymore. I don’t mean I’m losing it but there’s just too much on my plate to think about that I decided I have to put that aside.
My father is feeling a little better but he’s still having a hard time getting up from the bed and getting on the bed. I covet thy prayers. He’s on painkiller because at his age, surgery is not an option. I constantly worry about him. At times I wonder what will happen to me when my parents are no longer around. If possible, I would just want to be caught up in the sky. (Rapture!) Who wants the aches and pains?…
My work – what can I say about my work? There are so many issues with a) the computer b) the Helpdesk – which really doesn’t seem to help. I kid you not, – I was asked to ping the assistant when I came back from lunch this afternoon. I did that and he immediately went offline. (What the….!??) c) work-related issues – taking over someone’s portfolio is really one thing. (And quite another when the portfolio wasn’t well managed in the first place..) (In other words, it’s cleaning up someone else’s mess.)
There are still so many potential issues that could pop up but I can’t think about them anymore. Now I have to put out fire,…one at a time.
26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
God is still in control. Everything will be allright. Definitely have no clue how… but by faith,… everything will be all right.
It’s been many years since I left Canada. Although there are many places that I’ve visited that I long to re-visit, there’s one place that remains in my heart. Niagara Falls.
I was a young Christian then and I recall standing by the edge looking at the horseshoe falls and just feeling absolutely amazed. No words could describe that feeling. Standing next to it and hearing the thunderous sound of the falls, feeling the mist on my skin. Seeing how big it is and feeling so small so suddenly. Today, I can only imagine how it must have been like when God spoke the world into existence. Imagine darkness and how the light broke forth at just a command.
King James Version (KJV)
3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.
4 And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.
I honestly find it more difficult to believe that such beauty could suddenly exist overtime. Nothing anyone can say would convince me that there is a Creator and that Creator is God.
Then today as I look back and replay the sound of the falls in my mind, I can echo Chris Tomlin’s song, “How Great Is Our God”.
Lately I’ve been extremely sensitive and I don’t even know why. Just listening to the worship songs at times would bring tears in my eyes. During my own quiet time at home, when I sing worship songs, tears flow so freely. Even reading some bible verses bring tears because I’m so moved by God’s love.
This morning my eyes got cloudy and it rained again during the altar call. I felt heat coming down on me, surrounding my whole being and I felt so peaceful. She said to me “The Lord loves you,” and that started the ‘rain’.
If this continues, I might be the “weeping worshipper”.
Chinese New Year is just around the corner. I don’t usually look forward to this holiday season although I’m a Chinese because the streets of Penang get really crowded. It’s like a great exodus from Kuala Lumpur or other big cities in different parts of Malaysia where Penangites would travel back to their hometown for the reunion dinner etc…And of course, the loud fireworks/firecrackers – speaking of which, whatever happened to the ban? Chinese New Year used to be meaningful but ever since my sisters got married and moved to other countries, it’s become like any other day except there’s a lot more goodies to eat. Hence, people tend to gain weight after the Chinese New Year break.
My mom has been quite busy making “kuih bangkit”. These cookies are white in colour and have red dots on them. There’s a lot of work involved in making these cookies. Putting the red dot is easy but before one can put the dot on the pre-baked cookies, there’s the knocking process to get the pre-baked cookie out from the cookie mold. If it doesn’t look good, the whole process of kneading starts again. That got me thinking – doesn’t that sound familiar? At least, to me it does.
I believe that God already sees us as the “finished product”. Of course, before we become the “finished product”, we go through several processes called “life”. (And sometimes, life sucks.) I think that God in His unlimited knowledge already knows what’s needed to shape us and everything (good or bad) that we go through doesn’t go to waste in God’s economy.
King James Version (KJV)
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Honestly, in times of difficulty, I’m still learning to be able to say, “What do You want me to learn from this, Lord?”