Category Archives: Heart

What Are You Dwelling On?

I know I have a call in writing. I just don’t know if I’m supposed to write stories, letters, essays, or poetry. As a child, I wrote a lot and I had imaginary friends. Even my small pillows had names and I could easily make up a story about the pillows. My relatives and friends have given me pens as gifts. I had actually forgotten about that but memories came back when my pastor (one day) prophesied that God would use me in my writing. That was when bits and pieces of the past somehow fall into place.  So, I’ve been seeking the Lord to get a direction on what I’m supposed to write although I’m eager to write fiction or just about anything that I’m inspired to write. Honestly, I’ve spent so much time thinking about writing, making plans on writing a book but never actually writing. It’s time to stop dwelling on those thoughts and start writing.

This morning, the devotion that I read led me to Ephesians 4:29. (Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.) I think I’ve finally heard from God what He wants me to write. I should write words that build people according to their needs and words that minister His grace to them. Whether I write letters, poetry, short stories or even books, I will write to (οἰκοδομὴν) encourage and build.

Romans 14:19 King James Version (KJV)

19 Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another.

Ephesians 5:4 King James Version (KJV)

Neither filthiness, nor foolish talking, nor jesting, which are not convenient: but rather giving of thanks.


So, what did you do on Christmas Day? I decided to visit my beautician to get my eyebrow embroidery done. I’m afraid I’m not as hardworking in maintaining the eyebrows and definitely not one to use cosmetics to darken my eyebrows. The first time I did eyebrow embroidery was several years ago. It works like a charm because my natural brows are oddly shaped. (Grin)

While I know that many treat Christmas day as a day for them to celebrate…eg. hosting BBQs, parties etc… let’s not forget the reason for this season. Let’s not forget the Person we are celebrating.

I wish you a Merry Christmas and may you be blessed with good health, joy, peace & love.

John 3:16

New Living Translation (NLT)

16 “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.


“Homesick” for Austria

Hallstatt, Austria

Hallstatt, Austria

A friend of mine said that I have been permanently infected by the travel bug. I think she may be right. I find myself surfing the internet to get the information on the airfare to those destinations which I hope to visit in the future. I’m almost always planning for trips…estimating the budget I would need but never really taking the leap especially when the trip is costly.

Austria is one of the countries that I’ve longed to visit. I’m not sure if longing is the word to use. Obviously I’ve not been to Austria but for some crazy reason, I feel as if there’s  a huge magnet placed in Austria that’s pulling me there. It’s almost as if I need to get there or I could regret it for the rest of my life. Of course, what better way to remind myself of Austria than the nice wallpaper showing Hallstatt. I suppose I’m just human to long for a sudden windfall of cash. Ah!… So many places to see, so little time, and so little money!

Austria, just you wait,… I will come to you. Soon…



So, I finally went to see the orthopaedic regarding my knee. It’s nice to see a familiar face as he’s a friend of my sister. I was so relieved when he said that it couldn’t be osteoarthritis. He explained to me my condition. In layman’s terms, the rigorous exercise must have caused this injury. Plica Tendonitis. Anyway, I took this picture when I got home from the physiotherapy.

Anyway, when I was lying down on the bed as the therapist used the ultrasound machine on my knee, I thought, there must be a purpose why He allowed this to happen. There must be something that He wanted to show me. I closed my eyes while the treatment was being done. After the treatments, I was ushered to the gym. Ah yes! The gym. I was led to the leg extension machine and the seated leg press. Unlike my typical training at the gym, this was minimal weight to rehab my knee. describes rehabilitation as “specialized healthcare dedicated to improving, maintaining or restoring physical strength, cognition and mobility with maximized results. Typically, rehabilitation helps people gain greater independence after illness, injury or surgery.”

While doing the knee exercises, I looked around and saw a some other patients. Some old, some young. Suddenly, I had an epiphany. (It’s amazing how much easier to hear from God when one remains quiet.)

After I had stepped down from serving in the worship team, I felt like I needed some kind of rehabilitation. It can be really tiring and discouraging to hear comments such as these, “Why are the singers so dead?” Can’t they  be more lively? Who is worship leading this weekend? If it’s so-and-so,  I can’t worship. Only that person can lead me to the Holy of Holies.” My last few months in the worship ministry, I felt nothing but dried up, tired, discouraged and disillusioned.

Sometimes I feel like there’s this disconnect between the worship team and the congregation, whereby the congregation (some of them – not all) expects an entertainment instead. When I stepped down, it was like a moment when I had to just sit back and wait on Him. I was almost convinced that my initial application to be a part of the team was a big mistake. It was as if I was staring at the checklist, and I told God that this is not for me. It can’t be. I can’t and don’t dance. I can appreciate dance as a subject but to ask me to move about and dance is like asking me to speak Russian, or Greek. I just don’t do it. I was never shaped to do it. Then there’s the other thing, when someone approached one of the other singers and said “I like your countenance.” Hence I took it that the one who made the comment liked to see people smiling up there. This other singer does have a smiley face. Then I thought to myself, I guess nobody else in this team has that countenance, or the right kind of look on our faces. To me personally, I found it very discouraging. On my last day of service, I was going through a hard time because I had to put aside my grief. It was that weekend that I was attending my friend’s wake services and on my last Sunday, was the day of his funeral. I was still trying to get over that shock of his death. That weekend, if there was any smile at all, it was faked out and I am sure God knew about it because my heart was crying.

Just recently I was asked to sing along with the worship team. I was really surprised because I didn’t tell anyone that I used to serve in the worship team in the church I used to attend. I helped out last weekend and didn’t think much of it later. It was only after I received the SMS from the pastor that I had to really think hard and seek God and ask the question, “Are you sure I’m the right person?” I asked that because I was no longer sure. I asked God to speak to me in my dream and show me my current situation and enable me to understand and remember that dream.

True enough on that Sunday night, I had a dream. In the morning, I knew that God was affirming that call. Yet, I was worried that I would have to face the same situation again. I was still reluctant. As if the dream wasn’t enough to send me a message, it seemed like the podcast episodes the past week or so was touching on that same topic.

So yesterday, I surrendered. God, since this is from You – I will obey. Like what happened in my dream, it’s time to wipe away the dirt, forget all the negative remarks said by people, forget the bad experiences,… wipe them away, put on the spiritual running shoes and start running again. After all, it’s all about You, O Lord!

Romans 11:29 For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable. (ESV)


The Heart

I was reading an article about the human heart at the following website: Top 10 Amazing Facts About Your Heart. Isn’t it amazing that this muscle about the size of a fist can do so much work?

Why do I call it work? Read this excerpt from the above mentioned website. “In under a minute, your heart can pump blood to every cell in your body. And over the course of a day, about 100,000 heart beats shuttle 2,000 gallons of oxygen-rich bloodmany times through about 60,000 miles of branching blood vessels that link together the cells of our organs and body parts.

I marvel at God’s creativity and wisdom. The more I think about it, the more I believe that it has been God’s intention to protect our hearts all along. The structure of the human heart and its location speaks louder than words.  “Located in the middle of the chest behind the breastbone, between the lungs, the heart rests in a moistened chamber called the pericardial cavity which is surrounded by the ribcage. The diaphragm, a tough layer of muscle, lies below. As a result, the heart is well protected.”  (Structure of the Human Heart)

(NKJV) Proverbs 4:23 Keep your heart with all diligence, For out of it spring the issues of life.

So this brings to mind the other aspect of the human heart, or should I call it the soul – the very essence of our being. (The nut in the shell.) Shouldn’t we protect our hearts too? I like what Michael Hyatt wrote.

He wrote the following. (Three Reasons Why You Must Guard Your Heart)

  1. Because Your Heart Is Extremely Valuable
  2. Because Your Heart Is the Source of Everything You do
  3. Because Your Heart Is Under Constant Attack

Sometimes I think we very often too easily expose our hearts to pain. Sometimes it could be a wrong relationship, or hanging around the wrong group of people that bring us down and kill our dreams and hopes prematurely. Shouldn’t it be about time we really guard our hearts?