Step By Step – Tiny Miracles

I never thought I’d see my dad going to church again but today, I was so amazed that he’s feeling well enough to go to church and to want to go for service. You see, my dad had a bad bout with osteoporosis. All those years doing his favourite activity (sweeping the garden) has caused him to have a bad back. And yet, he still strives to sweep the garden. He has to wear braces to support his back for long term and there have been days when he was stubborn and did what he wasn’t supposed to do; which brought him greater pain. There was a time when he was beginning to feel negative and didn’t want to listen to the Chinese sermons I got for him. However, praise God that he is up and about and is well enough to go to church.

Recalling My “Simon Peter” Moment

I’ve been having mixed feelings lately after returning to the gym for my workout. I find that I can’t be as active as I used to be, prior to my knee injury about 2+ years ago. Sometimes I wonder if my knee will ever get back to the way it was before the injury. Then I am reminded that I’m not getting younger…and some wear and tear in the body is natural.
After being out of action for a while, it’s certainly tough to get started. Perhaps I was too ambitious and found that my quads are actually weak because after 30 minutes on the elliptical, I could feel my legs getting wobbly. Lately my left knee has been complaining, again. This is bad news. Those years without exercise have caused me to gain extra weight and trying to lose them is tough when I need to take it easy so I don’t cause further damage to my knees.

Back to the Gym

I’ve once again signed up to join the gym. Feels good to be active again although I think I won’t be running again. The elliptical machine is great because it simulates running minus the weight pounding on my knees. Here’s to getting fit again.

Trust and Surrender

Proverbs 3:5-6 Good News Translation (GNT)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the Lord in everything you do, and he will show you the right way.

I’m so glad that I obeyed the still small voice that prompted me to write to the person from my past. Before I made the decision to write, I was somehow reminded to write to him.

Although I have no idea what the outcome is, I believe God knew that doing this would somehow free me from the cage that I had locked myself in for so many years. It was a cage of questions, where I kept asking myself why certain things happened. Could I have prevented it, or whether it was my fault that it just didn’t work out, or … couldn’t work out.

After writing the short note to him to wish him a happy birthday, I found that the cage has at least been unlocked and I’m free. No more questioning why things happened the way they did. This morning, I sensed the Lord telling me to leave the outcome to Him. Maybe I will never know the real outcome until many years later. Just because I can’t see God working, doesn’t mean He isn’t working on it.

The ability to really desire all the best for someone who once hurt me so deep definitely didn’t come form myself. It is all God’s grace.

Celebrate Peace : Christmas

So, what did you do on Christmas Day? I decided to visit my beautician to get my eyebrow embroidery done. I’m afraid I’m not as hardworking in maintaining the eyebrows and definitely not one to use cosmetics to darken my eyebrows. The first time I did eyebrow embroidery was several years ago. It works like […]

Slow Down

I thought I’d  write a short update on my knee(s) in this post. If you’ve just recently followed my blog, you’ll need to go back to my posts back about 2 years ago if you need the details. Or, I’ll just give you a short background. I injured my knees about 2 years ago when I was training for marathon. I came close to going for an operation but somehow at the last minute, I couldn’t do it. I’ve been going for treatment at my friend’s brother-in-law’s clinic. He’s a chiropractor. Healing has been good. The problem is I took off my knee braces a little too soon when my left knees haven’t regained strength so it’s getting a little painful again. And my weight has increased because I can’t do any cardio workout. So, that puts additional stress on my knees.

So, I went to the clinic this evening. I was told that I’m walking too fast. I guess it’s time to slow down. Stop rushing for everything. (Now I wish that’s the same motto at the workplace.)

When I was still studying in the local college, my sister used to tease me whenever she keeps having to stop at the traffic lights when I’m in the car. She’d say, “is it red underwear?” Obviously when I face the same situation this day, I can’t turn to her and ask her the same thing. Although I remember getting very frustrated whenever I’m stopped by the red lights.

I suppose God is also asking me to slow down…and rest. I must learn to slow down and rest in Him.

Psalm 62:5-8

New Life Version (NLV)

5 My soul is quiet and waits for God alone. My hope comes from Him. 6 He alone is my rock and the One Who saves me. He is my strong place. I will not be shaken. 7 My being safe and my honor rest with God. My safe place is in God, the rock of my strength. 8 Trust in Him at all times, O people. Pour out your heart before Him. God is a safe place for us.