If last week was my “Abraham being tested” moment, Friday was that special moment when God stepped in. I believe the Lord wanted to see if I was willing to obey and serve Him beyond my comfort zone. So first, I spent a day complaining and pouring my heart to God. The next day, I told Him that I would go ahead with it. It didn’t stop me from feeling inadequate and that I would never be the “backup singer” people expected me to be. But I purposed in my heart to obey God. (I was reminded that obedience is the easier way. It may not be always easy, but it’s the easier way.)
On Friday, I received a message from my pastor that one of the girls couldn’t make it, which meant there’s nobody handling the projection. In the end, I became the projectionist instead of the backup singer. It was like a big load off my shoulder and I knew that God has seen my heart, and I’ve passed my test. Praise the LORD!
2 Timothy 2:13 New King James Version (NKJV)
13 If we are faithless,
He remains faithful;
He cannot deny Himself.
If there was ever a day that I felt really small, it would be yesterday. I had to represent my manager in a meeting. She had told me that not everyone was invited but only a selected group. I agreed to represent her without knowing who else would be there. Thank God who sent someone along my way to guide me to where the meeting room was. It wasn’t even listed in the directory, so the chance meeting with a lady who was walking to her office was indeed a blessing from God. Serendipity!
Psalm 8:4 The Voice (VOICE)
4 I can’t help but wonder why You care about mortals—
sons and daughters of men—
specks of dust floating about the cosmos.
Guess what though… I had to sit among the group of managers, and a senior manager. Hence, that feeling like being a potato among pumpkins and a melon. Everyone’s introduction was like “I am,…… My team is involved in…. ” Mine was different, “I am,… representing….”
Suddenly, (like just a few minutes ago – as I’m writing this post),..a thought struck my head – which I believe came from the Lord. “Why do you focus so much on what you are among others? Focus on Me.” I was reminded of this verse.
Exodus 3:14 New Life Version (NLV)
14 And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And He said, “Say to the Israelites, ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”
Again…suddenly,.. the realization of being an ambassador of Christ makes me feel so honoured, and special. Suddenly, it doesn’t matter anymore that I never made it to the elite teams in my former schools, and never made it to the dean’s list,… but God loves me…a small potato. Yes, that small potato that sometimes feels like throwing shoes at annoying people at the workplace. God loves me.
2 Corinthians 5:20 Amplified Bible (AMP)
20 So we are Christ’s ambassadors, God making His appeal as it were through us. We [as Christ’s personal representatives] beg you for His sake to lay hold of the divine favor [now offered you] and be reconciled to God.
Jeremiah 1:5 New Living Translation (NLT)
5 “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb.
Before you were born I set you apart
and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”
I admit that sometimes I do pray for a good parking lot at times, especially when I’m at a busy mall on a public holiday. Some people pray and ask for good exam results, some others pray for journey mercies before they travel, and the list goes on. God cares about the little things too.
Last night, either my mom misplaced one of the house keys or my dad forgot that he took it. My dad became grumpy and said it was my mom. My mom said she had left the key on the table. He kept going on about how her memory is failing. The thing is, he’s forgetting things too. I too, sometimes forget that I’m holding my umbrella and wonder where it is.
In order to cool off, we decided not to look for the keys – or at least wait till the morning. This morning, after my quiet time, I asked the Lord to show me where the key is. I didn’t hear any mysterious voice telling me but when my mom asked me to move some things around, lo and behold,… I found my eyes looking straight at the missing key – lying on the floor.
So yes, God cares about our daily lives. If it matters to you, it matters to Him.
Philippians 4:6-7 Good News Translation (GNT)
6 Don’t worry about anything, but in all your prayers ask God for what you need, always asking him with a thankful heart. 7 And God’s peace, which is far beyond human understanding, will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with Christ Jesus.
What an unbelievable few days I’ve had! Although I’ve been receiving the weekly shortages, I had not taken any action one of my parts because there was enough stock. For the past few weeks, I kept updating that there was no shortage but I couldn’t really shake off that feeling that there’s something I fail to see. After a few weeks, the restlessness increase and I couldn’t figure out why.
Just this Monday, I stared at the shortage report and wondered what I missed out because that feeling remained. Suddenly, I heard a voice in my head asking me if I have checked my open orders. I ran the report and had a shock because there was no open orders. Apparently when I was asked to remove my “preferred name” from the system, somehow the report failed to capture the parts in my portfolio because they were tied to my preferred name. So, order was only released this week when I will need the parts in 2 weeks time. I quickly wrote to my supplier to check on stock availability and was relieved that they had some stock. (However, I had to wait one day for them to confirm that the stock was available.)
Guess what though…with their existing stock, I will be able to support production’s needs for approximately 8 weeks. (The leadtime is 7 weeks.) I’m so relieved and yet I shouldn’t be surprised because God hears and He cares. That one day of wait could’ve been such an agony but I felt assured that everything will be all right, and kept getting reminders to fear not.
I suppose God has been trying to get my attention a few weeks ago from the shortage report but somehow, I couldn’t catch it. Just when I thought I’ll be in trouble for such a short lead time order, God helped me again. I would’ve been in big trouble if my supplier has no stock; and would have to explain to the management.
Praise the Lord!
When I was listening to one of Matt Redman’s albums, I discovered this song. I’m posting the video clip here because the lyrics really moved my heart.
If you’re going through a hard time right now, don’t let go because God loves you and He will never let you go.
Listen to the words of this song closely.
I suppose there won’t be any drama if not for the taichi queen. I do admit that my patience is wearing thin (and thinner every day). I shook my head with disbelief when I learned that she didn’t even bother to complete her share of updates when she was reminded about it through an email yesterday. Technically speaking, she’s still supposed to do her share until the transfer is done. She left it incomplete and now that the transfer process has been completed – I’m left to do the updates. Meanwhile she continues with her tea breaks etc… This is,…”washing hands”, but unprofessionally done. It’s a way of saying “I don’t care who does it. I don’t want to do it anymore.”
There needs to be proper transition.
New King James Version (NKJV)
17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
God, help me believe that it is darkest before dawn, because then I know dawn is coming since it’s sure pitch black now.
Yesterday, someone advised me not to feel too concerned about the number 40. I had to laugh it off because I’m not the least bit concern. I feel a sense of freedom, although I don’t know why. Moreover, the number 40 seems to be very significant in the Bible. Go ahead and read up about it. For me personally, I think 40 years feel like a time of testing, waiting and trusting God even though everything seems to stand still.
I have a strange feeling inside, I’m not sure what it is but I think the waiting period is over. And therefore, good things are coming.
Praise God for His faithfulness throughout the years.