The title of this post is somewhat strange I suppose but it relates to something once prophesied on me many years ago..almost 20 years ago. That was my Isaac, something I held on for so many years. When I was in my 20s, watching my peers get married one by one made me long for that as well. But I recalled that I told the Lord the kind of guy I desired, and imagine the feeling when someone prophesied to me that I would have a family of my own and that my husband would be serving in the same ministry with me. Then of course I waited and waited and waited. Because of that prophecy, I somehow managed to protect my heart and did not give it away to simply anyone. The first 10 years were difficult because family reunions would somehow put that pressure on me. “Don’t be so picky.” “You should be more open.” But I knew what I wanted.
The second 10 years became easier because they gave up on pushing me and I gave them a cold shoulder if they attempted to set me up. (Yes, that really happened. I found the guy totally boring and playing iPhone games with my niece was much more fun.) As I grew older, the prophecy that was spoken gets placed higher and higher in the shelf till I’d forget about it. Except during those odd moments when somehow I get reminded of it.
Recently, I sought the Lord for answers. I didn’t want to be reminded of this word anymore because I suddenly feel that the season is over. As I said before, the longer it takes, the more impossible it gets. I wanted to move on without being reminded of that old prophecy. Then every time I’m reminded of it, I end up looking at what I don’t have, when on usual days, I’ve not even felt shortchanged, or that I missed out on anything.
For a while, after seeking God, I thought He wanted me to continue waiting but after praying for clarity, I came across these 2 verses that spoke to me. Finally, I feel set free.
“Let your eyes look right on [with fixed purpose], and let your gaze be straight before you.”
Proverbs 4:25 AMP
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.”
Psalm 32:8 NIV
I’m not sure if the one who prophesied on me had heard correctly, misheard, miscommunicate or whatever but I feel the peace knowing that God will guide me in the way I should go. I now know that I can surrender my Isaac and move on in peace; and then treat the occasional reminders as just memories of the past.