I’ve been studying the book of Malachi. Being a member of the worship team, it has caused me to reflect. (Not exactly a post-mortem but I wanted to check my heart.) I want to be sure that I’m not just going through the motions when I serve. (Note to self: Time to cut down the kdramas…again.) I need to spend more time with God, not because I will be zapped by lightning if I watch too many dramas. But I realize I often get so busy with my own agenda that I forget the most important Person in my life,…my very own Saviour.
I want to spend more time with God because I desperately need Him in my life. Because without Him, I’ll be just a lost and lonely sheep wandering in this chaotic world.
Psalm 51:16-17 is evidence that God takes worship seriously. And He does look at our hearts. What good is it if we’re always on time for service and we get the actions done, as routine but our hearts and intentions are not pure? It’s who we are on the inside, when nobody is looking.
When we go to church, who are we there to worship? God? Or the worship of self? And this, I’m addressing those who belong to the spectator group. Because it’s so easy to say that John is a better worship leader because he’s loud and Ryan isn’t. Jessie can’t play the keyboard, so she shouldn’t be up there? Kelly doesn’t look good because she doesn’t smile as much and cannot dance? The songs aren’t nice. The list goes on and on… but Hello – that shouldn’t be the focus. If God qualifies them, who are you to disqualify them?
As for me, I have decided that I will not just go through the motions. I must give Him the best, because He gave His best (Jesus) for me.
Psalm 51:16-17 The Message (MSG)
16-17 Going through the motions doesn’t please you,
a flawless performance is nothing to you.
I learned God-worship
when my pride was shattered.
Heart-shattered lives ready for love
don’t for a moment escape God’s notice.