Even when we can’t see the results yet…
Even when we can’t see the results yet…
I’ve been studying the book of Malachi. Being a member of the worship team, it has caused me to reflect. (Not exactly a post-mortem but I wanted to check my heart.) I want to be sure that I’m not just going through the motions when I serve. (Note to self: Time to cut down the kdramas…again.) I need to spend more time with God, not because I will be zapped by lightning if I watch too many dramas. But I realize I often get so busy with my own agenda that I forget the most important Person in my life,…my very own Saviour.
I want to spend more time with God because I desperately need Him in my life. Because without Him, I’ll be just a lost and lonely sheep wandering in this chaotic world.
Psalm 51:16-17 is evidence that God takes worship seriously. And He does look at our hearts. What good is it if we’re always on time for service and we get the actions done, as routine but our hearts and intentions are not pure? It’s who we are on the inside, when nobody is looking.
When we go to church, who are we there to worship? God? Or the worship of self? And this, I’m addressing those who belong to the spectator group. Because it’s so easy to say that John is a better worship leader because he’s loud and Ryan isn’t. Jessie can’t play the keyboard, so she shouldn’t be up there? Kelly doesn’t look good because she doesn’t smile as much and cannot dance? The songs aren’t nice. The list goes on and on… but Hello – that shouldn’t be the focus. If God qualifies them, who are you to disqualify them?
As for me, I have decided that I will not just go through the motions. I must give Him the best, because He gave His best (Jesus) for me.
Psalm 51:16-17 The Message (MSG)
16-17 Going through the motions doesn’t please you,
a flawless performance is nothing to you.
I learned God-worship
when my pride was shattered.
Heart-shattered lives ready for love
don’t for a moment escape God’s notice.
So, yesterday morning was strange. It started when I was awaken by the feeling of a tiny slap on my back. Since I couldn’t go back to sleep, I headed downstairs for my personal quiet time with the LORD.
For some reason, it seemed as though God wanted to remind me of His love for me. I thought of the song Creator King because the lyrics somehow speak to me, since He has made me a creative being.
Little did I know it was to give me the assurance I would need because later that morning, I would hear about the gossip that’s going around. No matter what they say, He sees my heart and I can leave the matter in His hands.
Psalm 8:4 GOD’S WORD Translation (GW)
4 what is a mortal that you remember him
or the Son of Man that you take care of him?
I am feeling mixed emotions today. Last night I just found out that one of my teachers has passed away in October last year. I am somewhat lost for words. I took art lessons from both she and her husband. I remain indebted to both of them for teaching me, for helping me see – as an artist.
She’s an inspiration to me. I wish I knew about her passing. If not for this couple, none of my artworks would’ve had the chance to be displayed at the state art gallery.
I am still in shock and still can’t believe she’s gone.
For some reason, I felt led to do a word study on “security”. I sense the Lord revealing to me that I have trust issues.
The fact is we’re bombarded with so many things that can cause us to ask that one infamous question: What is going to happen to me?
The Brexit. What will the results be? How will it affect the world economy? How about the US economy (since I work for a US company)? With the current economic situation, will it make things worse? Will I lose my job? How will I pay for my apartment?
I will be lying if I say that I did not (even for once) thought about those questions. What’s the remedy? Replacing the questions with God’s Word.
I will “trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt” I “dwell in the land, and verily” I “shalt be fed.”
Psalm 37:3-8 King James Version (KJV)
3 Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.
4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
5 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.
6 And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.
7 Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.
For me, it was hard not to want to read After You (by Jojo Moyes) because a part of me wanted closure for Louisa Clark. It’s obvious that there will always be a space for Will in her heart but I wanted to read about how she deals with that raw pain. I wanted to see her moving on this book wasn’t what I had expected. (SPOILER ALERT)
It’s the ups and downs, like wanting to move on but perhaps keeping one foot in the past. It made me wonder if she’s afraid that moving on would make her remember less and less of Will. And there’s that part of her that still wants to hold on to every part of his memory.
I think this book is ok as a standalone although it doesn’t give much of a punch. Of course, Sam Claflin is very handsome and thus makes the character Will even more unforgettable. Somehow the new character Lily (Will’s daughter) somehow spoils everything for me. But I guess he did say he was a complete arse.
For me, I don’t think you really see Lou moving on, until towards the end – where she heads off to New York. Of course, there’s Nathan there too – so, there’s still a little bit of the past in her future. I can’t see a sequel after this.
I used to go out every weekend, accompanied by my hot dates a.k.a cameras (plural). Photography was one of my passions because it was like capturing moments, and some are special moments although most of the photos I took were of mountains, seas, city scenes, still life etc… On rare occasions, I take photos of people including my crushes. This song reminds me of the reason why I still keep their photos. Cos somewhere deep inside, there’s still a special place for them.