I’ve been enjoying the long break away from work so much that I find that I didn’t miss it at all. I’ve never felt the desire to connect to the office network and download my emails, at least not until today and it wasn’t because of desire but I can’t shirk my responsibility.
What I have observed is my passion to write is still there, even when I am not writing. What I need is an open door and inspiration from God to write something that will be my big break.
So much has happened the past year that has prompted me to look for a small property, to prepare for my future. Yes, so much to think about…the funds for the property, the funds to allocate in case of medical emergency (parents), cost of living that’s rising (and thank God for the drop in fuel price lately). Still, I’ve not found any property that I like which I can afford and I don’t see the point of being a slave to the property. Somehow, I don’t have the peace in buying any property at the moment. I’m not sure how to describe that feeling but it’s like a check in my heart that says, “no”.
I’ve also been wrestling so hard, wondering where my path leads. As always, I wish that God would show me a flowchart of my life so that I can see where various decisions would take me. I also know that if I had bought a property last year, I would be trapped and I won’t be able to leave a job that brings no fulfilment to me; and try something else that may bring me more fulfilment but at the same time, might be a drop in income.
Jeremiah 29:11 New Living Translation (NLT)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
The human side of me thinks I’m crazy to keep hanging on to that hope that God will open the door for me to what I’ve been wired to do. You see, I believe that if I’m already doing what I’m meant to do in this life,… there would be joy and fulfilment. I’m surprised that I’m still sane thus far. But oh, this wait is taking sooooo long.
Still, I know His plans are for good. Lord, please grant me favour, wisdom and peace at the workplace; and while You’re doing that, Lord keep me sane.