I would be lying if I say that I’m not the least bit worried about my knee. In the quiet of the night, I find myself getting mad at myself for working too hard on my gym activities. I wanted so badly to be healthy and fit and now, I have an injured knee that requires rehab.
It’s strange that it is less of a test when you are praying for another person’s healing or miracle. I’ve occasionally prayed for my friend to conceive as she’s been longing for a second child; and it’s so easy to utter those prayers. But when it comes to my own condition, I find myself struggling with doubt every now and then.
Again, God has His purpose(s) in allowing me to go through this episode. Yes, I’ve sworn off running. Yes, I am worried about my knee. And yes, I desperately hope that the inflamed plica would be restored and life goes on as usual. I don’t want to go for the MRI and don’t want to get it removed because from what I’ve read, people who have had their plica removed may suffer from re-occurrence and a more painful episode. So there…. God! I need a miracle.
Psalm 103: 1-5 NKJV
1 Bless the LORD, O my soul;
And all that is within me, bless His holy name!
2 Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits:
3 Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
4 Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
5 Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.